C0nFuSioN . .
Last October 28 to November 6, 2005, we had our Semestral break. Those ten days of rest meant a lot in my part for those ten days were the days I had a time to think about the things to be settled, about me, about my personality, my friends and even my love life.
Even though I have a lot of things to think about and I had a lot of time to think about it, it seems like I lost a lot of time. . reading our book report entitled "The Chronicles of Narnia". I was busy then, even though happy because I had a lot of rest, still my mind won't let me rest mentally and kept on waking me during the nights of those dark and cold days.
I was thinking what should I do with my situation with two people: Kenneth and Rafael. Who seem to be important and special people for me. Rafael was the guy whom is boastful, naughty but somehow sweet and I really like him a lot. But still, the kindness and total sweetness of Kenneth and his undesputable attitude of a true gentleman makes me knock myself of my feet. He has a girlfriend already which made me stop myself from loving him of his angelic attitude. By those peaceful days, I was hunted by my memories with him for I miss everything we've been through, I miss his voice, his jokes, our communication and everything. I really missed everything else. But then still Rafael keeps me down and yet Kenneth remains for he really is better for me as other people have said.
Then I have finally decided that even though he and his girlfriend had this love that is seem to be unbreakable by strong bonds and knives cutting down the ropes binding them together, I decided to remain, remain and wait for his awakening, dreaming and believing that one day he would finally found me. People say don't find love for it will surely come but when? I have found someone I wished and dreamed to be with and if that's my case even though I have found a new one, it only means that Kenneth is the one, the only one or the only man I dream of being with for the rest of my days. Still I felt this confusion if I'm really gonna stand it for so long for I have a short time to live here on earth and to waste myself for nothing but . . I seem to be decidedly so . . .
Even though I have a lot of things to think about and I had a lot of time to think about it, it seems like I lost a lot of time. . reading our book report entitled "The Chronicles of Narnia". I was busy then, even though happy because I had a lot of rest, still my mind won't let me rest mentally and kept on waking me during the nights of those dark and cold days.
I was thinking what should I do with my situation with two people: Kenneth and Rafael. Who seem to be important and special people for me. Rafael was the guy whom is boastful, naughty but somehow sweet and I really like him a lot. But still, the kindness and total sweetness of Kenneth and his undesputable attitude of a true gentleman makes me knock myself of my feet. He has a girlfriend already which made me stop myself from loving him of his angelic attitude. By those peaceful days, I was hunted by my memories with him for I miss everything we've been through, I miss his voice, his jokes, our communication and everything. I really missed everything else. But then still Rafael keeps me down and yet Kenneth remains for he really is better for me as other people have said.
Then I have finally decided that even though he and his girlfriend had this love that is seem to be unbreakable by strong bonds and knives cutting down the ropes binding them together, I decided to remain, remain and wait for his awakening, dreaming and believing that one day he would finally found me. People say don't find love for it will surely come but when? I have found someone I wished and dreamed to be with and if that's my case even though I have found a new one, it only means that Kenneth is the one, the only one or the only man I dream of being with for the rest of my days. Still I felt this confusion if I'm really gonna stand it for so long for I have a short time to live here on earth and to waste myself for nothing but . . I seem to be decidedly so . . .
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