My Own Cam at Last!!! (Sony - N1)

As far as I can remember it was December when I got my own digital camera!!! Sony - N1 . . it was my father's gift for me this Christmas!!! Yehey!!! It was really useful . . . for our schoolpaper's documentary . . . Scouting movement documentary . . and all around for all occassions of course!!!

It was actually handy . . . has a 3" touch panel . . easy to use. . and super duper great!!! I really love it!!! I was dreaming of having my own camera for I actually love taking pictures. . and videos!! And Sony - N1 has it all . . a good quality of video clips almost everything you actually need. . . :D . . Thanks dad for my early Christmas gift!!! Love you so much!!! :D

I MiSS HiM!!!

Do you know the feeling that . . what ever it takes . . . you'll just be there for him? . . Even though he has a girlfriend. . you'll continue loving him? . . . The feeling that everywhere you look you just see his face? . . The feeling in which you don't care if some people are angry of him as long as you're happy with him? . . . That exactly is what I feel . . . . .

In the case of today's happenings. . I actually wanted to see him . . hug him . kiss him and everything!!! I actually was attempting to do that in these last few days. . but of course. . . . . as you all know. . . I can't . . too thick is my face if I would. . . . I miss him a lot. . after some hours of not seeing him!!! I wanted to see him smile!!! See him in the mood and happy. . . . . . . . . . . But when . on Monday?!?!?!?!!?!!?!?!!? An hour is too long for me!!!! God help!!!! What should I do?!?! Give up . . once again!?!?!?!!!!!! :(

A Sad . . Sad Monthsary . .

This December 3 was actually the day wherein me and my bestfriend's monthsary . . . . but then it turned out to be the worst day I ever had. Yesterday, I actually told them that if they let me watch the basketball game of Galilee (my section, 2nd year) vs Bethany (4th year), my day would be fine and I'll join the party . . The two of my friends . . Tiffany Joy and Tishanie were included and their partners . . . hope you got my point. . but I was single. . single in total . . . I mean . . no one courts, nothing!!! Nothing at all!!! I was out of place at all!!! They were having a nice day . . . what about me??? Joining them not and I even haven't watched the last quarter of the game!!!

It was actually a terrible feeling for me!!!! I'm not just out of place!!! I'm so lovesick!!! Homesick!!! Friendsick!!! everything!!! I actually hate this day!!! Another thing is that, I was so guilty because I know I was of burden for my friends. . and maybe my "bestie" was angry with me because he asked me to take good care of his things which I just asked one of my classmates to be responsible of it since I have to go for the sake of not ruining the day . . which turned out to be the worst day of this year!!! It's not just a sad monthsary . . . but a day . . . which I just can't stop tears flowing from my eyes . . . . like how the clouds were not in the mood to soar the skies . . . . . .

cHaNGe

I can still remember how it started. You know . . the "bestie" thingy . . but then . . know. . . . . I treat him more than a bestfriend or a bestie but indeed someone special . . funny how love comes and goes right? Even friendship was counted . .

I actually never thought of fallin' for someone who actually is my friend!!!!!! And moreover. . my bestie!!! For the first time in my life, I never wished for anyhting else more in this situation of mine. Yeah . . I mean it hurts for I know he has a girlfriend already but then . . I'm just happy of my situation. . that's it!!! Weird right? I even remember that we were already friends before. . haha . . life and love. . . . . oh God!! Good thing he is always there when I need him . . and he makes my day complete. . . . . . . . I thought I won't get over with Ken . . but everything has changed . . . for the better. . of course!!! :)